Two days ago my mum had a convulsion and they found some metastases in her head and in the lung. Other unknown changes were found in her body.
Cancer is following my family and friends about 5 years, where I am almost permanentely waiting for medical results. It is so sustaining. I know, I have to be strong now, more than ever, but I don't know where to get that strength from.
I am almost 27 now but still feeling like a young child, that feels safe and secure. We are living in such indefeasible beliefs all the time, somewhere enrooted in our childhood. There is not a single doubt in us, that this beliefs will be not like that in the future.